Losing many family members and family friends within a short amount of time is extremely hard for the mind and soul. One of the hardest times I ever went through was when over the span of about 18-24 months my family lost about 16 family members and good friends. The constant anticipation of a phone call telling of another loved one’s death sent me into a sense of desperation and depression. I was confused and didn’t think there was anyone around me who would understand what was going on and help explain things to me.
The ages of 10 and 11 are already hard enough for most kids with the change in school environments, friends coming and going, and bodily changes that are not enjoyable either; adding a stream of dying family members only serves to make an already confusing situation worse. The hardest thing for me was the fact that no one my age seemed to be going through what I was, which made it difficult for me to find anyone I could talk to.
Because the people the family was losing were more closely related to my parents and I felt I had to be supportive of my mom and dad and because I did not have the gumption to show my true emotions about my situation outwardly to my friends, I had to put on a brave face and grieve on the inside instead of opening up and truly talking about what was going on.
The only way I was able to come out of the feeling of depression I was experiencing was finding someone who I could talk things out with and attain a sense of stability again. Some of the biggest contributors to me being able to come out of the feeling of isolation were my old youth director and some of the girls in my grade level. I realized that although they might not be going through what I was at the time, they had all lost someone at some point and could give me advice as to how to grieve in a healthy way.
Something to ask yourself: who has helped you through those times when you thought no one was there for you?
Written by Katheryn
The 12:12 Project is sponsored by Katy First United Methodist Church.