As I was sitting at a family function many years ago when my youngest, Jenna, was very small and very sick, my Aunt Doris told me that God had blessed Jenna with our family. I quickly told her that, No, God had blessed us with Jenna.
I grew up in the church. My mother played the organ for the churches we attended when we were young. I went to choir, MYF (Methodist Youth Fellowship), and helped with VBS (Vacation Bible School) during the summer. I felt like I knew God and was a pretty good Christian, but like most young adults, I sort of wandered away until I had children.
When Jenna was born it was pretty obvious something was a little different with her. The first 2 years of her life were very hard. She didn’t develop on a normal time frame, was considered a failure to thrive, and she had many more issues. There were many doctor visits with many different specialists. We had many sleepless nights. Finding things she could eat and trying to put weight on her was hard. It was stressful to me, my husband, and our other 3 children.
But what got me through was God. Isaiah 41:13 says:
For I am the LORD your God who takes hold of your right hand and says to you,
When I trusted him, things didn’t seem so stressed. I was able to see that God had a plan for Jenna and a plan for us. He brought us closer together as a family. I found the calling he had planned for me all along. As the years go by I see how He has used Jenna to change the people she comes in contact with - kids at school, her teachers, and many in our community.
I sometimes still get a little overwhelmed and stressed, but I know God is holding onto my hand and is right there when I need him.
Written by April
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